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I was thinking. It lead to what has happened to me all day. This unending feeling that I could do so much more with my life then just sitting on a couch and reading books about vampire girls and listening to the new Metric album again and again. So When my father came over, it had been months since I last saw him in person, we had an honest conversation. It took a few hours of tense silence to get to the conversation and he says he is going to pay for my classes so I will be going to Cedar Valley and majoring in music and recording and sound enginerring for the intent to become an indie rock musician manipulating sounds and the two guitars I have and the keyboard and putting out some very creative stuff. Thats my goal. To work a 9 to 5 and then get together with friends and make music and then press it into a 7 inch and sell it while we make more songs to make the friends we have have good tunes to listen to while getting drunk. Or having sex. Or whatever.  Just good tunes. 

The name of the project is All Lights On Here.  I'm attempting to put bass strings on an accoustic guitar, get batteries back in my keyboard and my beautiful gibson tuned and then its back to the trenches.  Or rather bedroom which is where I am mapping out the first of hopefully many albums. 

being in love has its own rewards

[17:19] nightfox6: Hey, I''ll be back in a bit... I'm running out
[17:19] nightfox6: <33
[17:19] cursive4: ok see you when you get back
[17:19] cursive4: i love you too

I'm very excited to move on with my life at a pace where my heart doesnt carry scars that you could see. I want to be at peace with more then I am right now. I wonder if that means giving up more then I already have.  Growing into the size of my penis is a frightening thing. Its the greatest experience though. Waking up and thinking, "I made this happen" or looking down into your loves beautiful bearded face and knowing that somewhere beneath ribs and organs you live in that heart. Its a great fucking feeling. 

Thats what I want people to hear in my synth/accoustic/folk/indie ear gasisms.  What it feels like to be alive.

for when work gets fustratng

nothing changes

hmm its been months since i looked at this xanga and nothing has changed. i feel the same way i did in the earlier entries.  just more so. 

i hope something good happens soon

my friend frank gave me 13 Saratogas and i hate eating meat and i got my heart broken thats all the news in the last 7 months

im moving somewhere in 4 months i dont know where right now

i feel horribly alone

and that im living a lie

I am colorblind
Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready

I am taffy stuck and tongue tied
Stutter shook and uptight
Pull me out from inside
I am ready I am fine

I am covered in skin
No one gets to come in
Pull me out from inside
I am folded and unfolded and unfolding
I am colorblind
Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready I am fine

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